Monday, 17 June 2013

Getting Better

Back in March I wrote a post about anxiety and seeing a new psychiatrist, and I wasn't particularly charitable about the psychiatrist. I was annoyed and scared that he was trying to get me to do stuff and I didn't want to do it.

It's now three months later, and I owe him an apology; for the first time in at least 8 years I feel hopeful that I'm going to recover. He referred me to a service called Enabling Independence and I was terrified that they were going to try to make me jump straight into looking for a job or something, but of course they didn't. I'm seeing a lovely woman called Molly every two weeks, and in the couple of months we've been meeting I've started to think about what I want to do with my future, something that seemed like a ridiculous thing to do back in March, and I've started volunteering at my local library for a couple of hours every two weeks, something that felt impossible not very long ago. I've started an online CBT course with a therapist as well which I'm also finding incredibly helpful.

It might be the medication, it might just be the right time for this, but something has changed. I feel more able to do these things than I did a couple of months ago. I know I've got a long way to go yet, and I'm bound to have set-backs, but I'm so thankful that things have started to improve.


  1. It's wonderful to read this! Yes there are always setbacks, but you're better equipped to deal with the next each time you overcome the last. Keep going. xxx

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  3. It is wonderful to know you are feeling even a little better and we will help you any way we can! Looking forward to the future with you. xxx

  4. This is good to know! I have Borderline too and it can be crippling sometimes. (hug) Love your blog! Glad that I stalked you over here after you visited me!

    1. Aw, thanks! I'm reading through your archives at the moment :)

  5. Glad to read everything is going so well. Looking forward to reading more positive posts :)